Panic moment

March 19, 2020

Currently laying in my bed, feeling a bit overwhelmed and paralyzed without a direction. It’s really confusing. I feel at peace knowing that God is in control, but also I don’t know how to deal with this. I don’t want to disturb my friends or people around me because I know it’s a crazy time for everyone, but also it’s scary being in my room alone when this is happening around the world. I will probably be staying on campus but everyone seems to be finding places to stay with friends or renting other places. It’s okay for me to stay here, but also it feels like it’s not okay? I also have been feeling like I don’t want to go before the Lord.. my pride and sinful nature is causing frustration. Is it ok that I’m laying here not wanting to think about things? I want to pray, but I can’t bring myself to. Lord, break me and bring me close to you. I feel as though the church around me is far. So far. Church, where are you? AHHHH FEAR YOU HAVE NO HOLD ON METhoughts of a confused Est